so, having pin-pointed some issues which are the likely causes of me yo-yoing over the past year and a bit, it's time to face up to them and decide which way to go.
i've done some thinking about what karen said in our one-to-one session at the retreat and talked through it with boo. i explained that him feeling sorry for me and thinking that take away food and a glass of wine will help, because i'm tired and don't want to cook, is all very nice but... in fact it's just undermining my efforts and allowing me to slip back into the old ways. i'm not blaming him, i should have the willpower in those situations.
i've also learned enough about how my body works to know that it's an all-or-nothing situation for me. trying out 50% raw worked for a week, but i don't think it's sustainable in the long run. i'm going for 100% now.
boo said if what it takes for me to stay raw is for us both to eat raw at home then he'll happily do that. he can still eat what he wants for breakfast, cos that's easy, it's just cereals, and for lunch while he's out at work, and he says he's happy with that arrangement. he didn't falter, he came straight out with it. i didn't ask him to, he offered. he only said if i asked him to go completely raw with me then he'd have to think about it - but i would never ask him to do that anyway. so that's a pretty good gig, i reckon.
so that's very good news, if not entirely resolved. we still need to work out how to approach the lack of dining out options and social events.
so my plans are to aim for 100% raw and allow myself some small treats, which will always be less than 10% of my daily food. that means i still can't go out for pizza... but i can have yoghurt in my coleslaw dressing and i might even be able to have a salad and doughballs at pizza express, so all might not be lost.
i aim to reduce my fat intake by using less oily dressings and restrict my nut intake.
aim for the 'clean burn' by eating when i'm hungry, to make sure everything gets fully digested before the next lot goes in.
have more green in my green smoothies and have green juices a couple of times a week.
try two new recipes a week. one simple during the week and one more complex at the weekend.
do more exercise. so that involves sorting out the second bedroom so i can use my rebounder and gym ball at home.
do more yoga. boo is currently only running twice a week, so i'm going to try to do my yoga when he does his runs.
to help out, for the next couple of weeks i'm going to keep a food diary, to track my progress and help me remember my goals.
